3c. Hitting the first bottom (podcast)

It’s time for this week’s podcast.

I didn’t particularly like this week. I have had such a swirling mess of emotions surrounding this post. Mostly I have a lingering sense of anger, but it’s not really anger about this particular situation. It’s more that I’m still angry about some parallel events that happened at the same time.

But anger isn’t even the right word; mostly I am just so, so sad. This week has left me unable to articulate exactly how I am feeling, and that is not at all something I am accustomed to. And I don’t like it. In the end, I suppose it’s about my inability to control things, and I really don’t like that.

I guess ultimately this week revealed to me that, despite the benefit of time and the joy of successful sobriety to date, the trauma of this period still lives, dormant much of the time, just underneath the surface. And this week woke the sleeping emotions and shoved them to the surface.

I’m ready to put them back to bed. I’m not sure that they have served me very well. I hope they have been useful for you.

Comments

  1. There are so many things I could say, but in a nutshell, the two of you are really serving a vast array of people, not just those affected by alcoholism. The insight from both of you is like a box of tools that can be useful for many problems in our human lives. Everything you’ve put out via the different forms has been useful and well done. I am so grateful to both of you. The heart-wrenching parts hit us all and remind us vividly of our shared humanity. This podcast, with its honesty about anger and the nuggets of insight/ wisdom from both of you, is powerful in so many ways. You obviously have heard from people who have been helped by your sharing, but I believe you will never truly know the entire scope of the far reaching affect. Through your willingness to reach out to others with hope, you have tapped into a greater purpose beyond the fact that you have survived and are continuing on. You are special people! Karla

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